This weekend was full of ups and downs. We have been on a search for a horse for Abby since August of 2010. Each time I pray that God will give us the right horse. Each time we come up empty handed. This time was closer than the last. James seemed like the perfect horse, the right height for Abby, quiet and calm demeaner. Both of our beloved trainers thought he was the perfect fit. He was a cute jumper and Abby liked him from the start. However, I had an uneasiness as I have in the past. I never can put my finger on it. However I was willing to put aside my anxieties and we decided to trust God and move forward.
Trust is releasing our control of a situation and relying on God to give us a green light or change our course of direction. Each time we make a decision we earnestly ask God for wisdom and guidance and a huge red flag if its not meant to be. After two nights of tossing and turning and the wisdom of our vet, the red light appeared. The horse had a medical condition and he was not the one for us to buy. With it came both relief and disappointment. We thought the time had finally come to stop looking. However, this was not God's perfect timing. While Abby was very disappointed, I couldn't stop praising God for His loving kindness for being faithful in answering and His protection of what would have been a future of heartache with the horse's condition.
Sometimes He gives us an opportunity or something that we want and then it is taken away for our benefit. All I could do was praise him as we were singing at church this morning:
You give and take away, You give and take away, my heart will choose to say, Lord blessed be Your name. A huge weight was lifted off my shoulders. As I continue to walk with God, I continue to see that He has our best interest in mind. When I can't see the future or the big picture, He can for He is sovereign.
We will continue our search and we will continue to trust Him for His guidance. One day, the timing will be right and Abby will have the horse that suits her and helps her grow. In the meantime, she is learning life lessons; to trust God in all things, to wait, due diligence and perserverance. One day soon He will give her heart's desire, better than we could have asked for.
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